boo went to get our hawaiian pizza.
but this was a GREAT christmas, all around.
no dissapointments!
we both got each other nintendo DS! lol
hey now we don't have to share or fight
for custody.
he got me some clothes. a book about andy,
a book that has all kinds of things
relating to alice in wonderland...
even recipes! an uglydoll!
that cool "seacret" nail stuff.
some rose soap like his minty soap,
cookies, subscrip to nylon magazine,
i'm going to forget something so i'll stop!
and his mom sent me up a sketch book&colored pencils,
and a beatles mug! i love it! &a thank you card,
i have to send her one now.
i am so happy.
-mints.
galleries.
i've decided that i have never had my heart broken.
after careful thinking and evaluation of past
relationships. i have never given enough of myself to
someone for them to be able to break my heart.
i have never been around someone long enough for
them to know who i am. i am so much more than
three months...six months...nine months.
i am even more than the amount of time derek and i have
been together, but he has given me the opportunities
to show someone, to show him, who i really am
and i have never felt judged.
and i feel like we are both so complex
that we bring so much to each others lives.
i've always thought i had a "heart of stone"
never letting people in, and once they were...
never telling them how i felt about them.
i feel differently now. i don't think that
derek even knows how different i was before him.
i let go of a lot of my past while i've been with
him. and i am happy about that. it's like,
in the past i was a different version of myself.
a guarded version. so becoming more free,
and becoming familiar with another human being
at the same time in the way i have with derek...
well i guess i've grown a lot.
i feel like derek could break my heart if we ever
got into such a situation.
and that scares me really bad.
i trust him so much. i trust him with so much.
he knows things i wouldn't tell anyone else.
he always calms me down. without even saying anything.
this all sounds so mushy. and scary.
i'm scared. of my own feelings.
i mean, i'm not saying things have been
perfect from day one. but we have gotten past
a lot of things. things that brought us down
to a level we don't belong.
we are better than that;
i realize that now.
&i think i can change him sometimes,
and i know that's wrong.
but i just want him to dance with me.
and i just want him to let go like i have been...
i know he has it in him.
i am still scared of the words that so many
people associate with these feelings.
they still get lodged in my throat.
i still can't say them.
i've tried to think of so many ways to say them
without saying them, but it doesn't feel right.
i am pretty sure he knows i feel without words.
i just feel sometimes like i will regret not
saying them someday. or not saying them sooner.
i hate words sometimes.
well, what if i feel like it's bigger than those words?
that other girls have said those words to him.
that we hear them so often that they don't mean
as much to me as he does.
i am emotional and will regret writing all of this.
not that i don't mean it all, just that i don't like
laying everything out like this. but it's okay. for now.
after careful thinking and evaluation of past
relationships. i have never given enough of myself to
someone for them to be able to break my heart.
i have never been around someone long enough for
them to know who i am. i am so much more than
three months...six months...nine months.
i am even more than the amount of time derek and i have
been together, but he has given me the opportunities
to show someone, to show him, who i really am
and i have never felt judged.
and i feel like we are both so complex
that we bring so much to each others lives.
i've always thought i had a "heart of stone"
never letting people in, and once they were...
never telling them how i felt about them.
i feel differently now. i don't think that
derek even knows how different i was before him.
i let go of a lot of my past while i've been with
him. and i am happy about that. it's like,
in the past i was a different version of myself.
a guarded version. so becoming more free,
and becoming familiar with another human being
at the same time in the way i have with derek...
well i guess i've grown a lot.
i feel like derek could break my heart if we ever
got into such a situation.
and that scares me really bad.
i trust him so much. i trust him with so much.
he knows things i wouldn't tell anyone else.
he always calms me down. without even saying anything.
this all sounds so mushy. and scary.
i'm scared. of my own feelings.
i mean, i'm not saying things have been
perfect from day one. but we have gotten past
a lot of things. things that brought us down
to a level we don't belong.
we are better than that;
i realize that now.
&i think i can change him sometimes,
and i know that's wrong.
but i just want him to dance with me.
and i just want him to let go like i have been...
i know he has it in him.
i am still scared of the words that so many
people associate with these feelings.
they still get lodged in my throat.
i still can't say them.
i've tried to think of so many ways to say them
without saying them, but it doesn't feel right.
i am pretty sure he knows i feel without words.
i just feel sometimes like i will regret not
saying them someday. or not saying them sooner.
i hate words sometimes.
well, what if i feel like it's bigger than those words?
that other girls have said those words to him.
that we hear them so often that they don't mean
as much to me as he does.
i am emotional and will regret writing all of this.
not that i don't mean it all, just that i don't like
laying everything out like this. but it's okay. for now.
ring a ding.
so this morning my car wouldn't start.
i don't blame him, though he is just
having some health issues. he's my
trusty steed, and trusty steeds even
get sick sometimes.
we [my dad and i] think it's
the gas line because my car
smelled really bad like gas the last
couple days after i filled the tank.
sooo quick fix. hopefully that's it.
horseback riding was really good yesterday,
i rode monty. he's new. he's a little green,
and was acting a bit fresh but he is
so adorable. we have a bond. i could feel it.
&i got him to collect his trot to where
it felt like he was trotting in place it was so cute.
and he cuddled me. i will take him extra
special treats next time.
i get to ride twice this coming week because
i missed a lesson due to the snow last friday.
YES! wish i could ride every day.
ok, so i dont know if this is TMI,
because not much qualifies as TMI to me,
but i dont know if its the nuvaring,
or something has changed in me but when i have
the nuvaring in [3 weeks i dont have my per.]
i have ZERO appetite. like, i could go
days without eating, sometimes i forget to
eat all day [my boo thinks im crazy when i say
i forgot to eat] and it doesn't even phase me.
i can go 2 days without eating and not even
be hungry! i mean i eat because i know i have to
but i do forget sometimes. then...
when it's time to take it out;
[the week i have my per.]
omg i could eat anything you hand me.
i was craving steak once, and i HATE steak,
always always have. it's crazy. we went to
red robin and i ate my whole burger, all my fries,
some extra fries, and got a gingerbread shake to go.
i never ever used to be able to clean my plate.
i really don't mind it because it doesn't
seem to be effecting my health. but it almost
feels like an eating disorder. like, i dont eat
for a whole day, or more. then for a whole week
im eating like a crazy person. and its not even
always that i forget to eat, it's that i have
no appetite. i bought some cheese to make
grilled cheese and some soup and i dont even
feel like eating it. but i'm going to.
so i'm going to make that now and then hang out.
clean up a little, my presents are everywhere.
boo comes home soon!
tomorrow or monday, not sure.
-mints.
i don't blame him, though he is just
having some health issues. he's my
trusty steed, and trusty steeds even
get sick sometimes.
we [my dad and i] think it's
the gas line because my car
smelled really bad like gas the last
couple days after i filled the tank.
sooo quick fix. hopefully that's it.
horseback riding was really good yesterday,
i rode monty. he's new. he's a little green,
and was acting a bit fresh but he is
so adorable. we have a bond. i could feel it.
&i got him to collect his trot to where
it felt like he was trotting in place it was so cute.
and he cuddled me. i will take him extra
special treats next time.
i get to ride twice this coming week because
i missed a lesson due to the snow last friday.
YES! wish i could ride every day.
ok, so i dont know if this is TMI,
because not much qualifies as TMI to me,
but i dont know if its the nuvaring,
or something has changed in me but when i have
the nuvaring in [3 weeks i dont have my per.]
i have ZERO appetite. like, i could go
days without eating, sometimes i forget to
eat all day [my boo thinks im crazy when i say
i forgot to eat] and it doesn't even phase me.
i can go 2 days without eating and not even
be hungry! i mean i eat because i know i have to
but i do forget sometimes. then...
when it's time to take it out;
[the week i have my per.]
omg i could eat anything you hand me.
i was craving steak once, and i HATE steak,
always always have. it's crazy. we went to
red robin and i ate my whole burger, all my fries,
some extra fries, and got a gingerbread shake to go.
i never ever used to be able to clean my plate.
i really don't mind it because it doesn't
seem to be effecting my health. but it almost
feels like an eating disorder. like, i dont eat
for a whole day, or more. then for a whole week
im eating like a crazy person. and its not even
always that i forget to eat, it's that i have
no appetite. i bought some cheese to make
grilled cheese and some soup and i dont even
feel like eating it. but i'm going to.
so i'm going to make that now and then hang out.
clean up a little, my presents are everywhere.
boo comes home soon!
tomorrow or monday, not sure.
-mints.
i went to best buy with my gift card
and got john legend's new cd
and ingrid michaelson's cd.
i love her's. i haven't listened
to his yet.
her songs make me feel so in love.
Giving Up - Ingrid Michaelson
and got john legend's new cd
and ingrid michaelson's cd.
i love her's. i haven't listened
to his yet.
her songs make me feel so in love.
Giving Up - Ingrid Michaelson
bread and circus.
i love my aunt liz. she teaches me
so much and feeds&encourages me
to keep using my imagination, no matter
how old i get.
i really enjoyed my family last night
and tonight. it was fun. i got really
good gifts and lots of money
[all going towards the disney world trip!
this i swear!]
i didn't really miss derek until now sitting
in the apartment alone!
usually i at least have shooter with me haha.
someone left us a bottle of jose cuervo in the door,
how thoughtful...
anybody want it?! haha.
my sister is the manager at lindt in the outlets.
so i have chocolate to last me a year!
and my mom bought me those chocolate oranges
you crack open because i used to beg for them
when i was little every time i went to a store with her.
haha.
i have riding tomorrow and forgot to get my
trainer something. :[ i'm sure she really won't
mind, though. and then after i have to go to the
mall and finish picking up some things for boooo
that i couldn't get while he was with me...
but it is boxing day and that means CANADIAN MANIAAAA.
the things i am getting are things that hopefully won't
be hot items...i mean, things that wont be sold out
because they're probably not something everyone wants
i could be wrong but i am really really really hoping.
really hoping.
soooo im going to go eat some
lindt truffles and surf the net
and then go to bed early!
yeah!
hope everyone had a merry christmas.
-mints.
so much and feeds&encourages me
to keep using my imagination, no matter
how old i get.
i really enjoyed my family last night
and tonight. it was fun. i got really
good gifts and lots of money
[all going towards the disney world trip!
this i swear!]
i didn't really miss derek until now sitting
in the apartment alone!
usually i at least have shooter with me haha.
someone left us a bottle of jose cuervo in the door,
how thoughtful...
anybody want it?! haha.
my sister is the manager at lindt in the outlets.
so i have chocolate to last me a year!
and my mom bought me those chocolate oranges
you crack open because i used to beg for them
when i was little every time i went to a store with her.
haha.
i have riding tomorrow and forgot to get my
trainer something. :[ i'm sure she really won't
mind, though. and then after i have to go to the
mall and finish picking up some things for boooo
that i couldn't get while he was with me...
but it is boxing day and that means CANADIAN MANIAAAA.
the things i am getting are things that hopefully won't
be hot items...i mean, things that wont be sold out
because they're probably not something everyone wants
i could be wrong but i am really really really hoping.
really hoping.
soooo im going to go eat some
lindt truffles and surf the net
and then go to bed early!
yeah!
hope everyone had a merry christmas.
-mints.
i am really tired
but i can't sleep now. derek just left
for work and i can't fall back asleep.
i have to go xmas shopping today...
i wonder how bad my car is trapped.
i also have to work at 4:00.
i hope she calls me and tells me not
to bother. but that probably won't happen.
i think i'm going to have some hot chocolate,
read my book and fall back asleep.
then i'll probably be digging my car out of
the snow, and going christmas shopping.
3 more days til christmas. it's crazy.
when you're older and you work all the time
christmas comes and goes so fast that you don't
even have time to get excited about it anymore.
i mean, i am excited...but not how i got
when i was little. now it's like eh, christmas,
i don't really want anything...
i told derek i am going to start knitting because
i came across this book at barnes&noble
that had the COOLEST stuff in it to knit.
and unlike a sewing machine you don't gotta
set it up and all that. it's like if you feel like
knitting...you knit. there was this sweater
with a quote by martin luther king knitted into it.
i thought that was pretty sweet. i guess his
mom and sister just started knitting, too.
i told him to buy his mom that book, too. lol.
okay hot chocolate time.
zzzzzz.
for work and i can't fall back asleep.
i have to go xmas shopping today...
i wonder how bad my car is trapped.
i also have to work at 4:00.
i hope she calls me and tells me not
to bother. but that probably won't happen.
i think i'm going to have some hot chocolate,
read my book and fall back asleep.
then i'll probably be digging my car out of
the snow, and going christmas shopping.
3 more days til christmas. it's crazy.
when you're older and you work all the time
christmas comes and goes so fast that you don't
even have time to get excited about it anymore.
i mean, i am excited...but not how i got
when i was little. now it's like eh, christmas,
i don't really want anything...
i told derek i am going to start knitting because
i came across this book at barnes&noble
that had the COOLEST stuff in it to knit.
and unlike a sewing machine you don't gotta
set it up and all that. it's like if you feel like
knitting...you knit. there was this sweater
with a quote by martin luther king knitted into it.
i thought that was pretty sweet. i guess his
mom and sister just started knitting, too.
i told him to buy his mom that book, too. lol.
okay hot chocolate time.
zzzzzz.
it's worse out than i thought!
but i have rescued my nani.
and now he is going to shovel
and i am going to eat
neopolitan kisses.
that taste like chocolate covered
strawberries if you chew them fast.
btw i forgot to blog that i turned
into the hulk the other day and shoveled the driveway
and the path to the house.
okay now im going to relax and see
where this snowstorm may take us.
but i have rescued my nani.
and now he is going to shovel
and i am going to eat
neopolitan kisses.
that taste like chocolate covered
strawberries if you chew them fast.
btw i forgot to blog that i turned
into the hulk the other day and shoveled the driveway
and the path to the house.
okay now im going to relax and see
where this snowstorm may take us.
ah, the snow.
so much snow! i left work an hour early today...
not because of the snow, or because it was super
dead in the store by then...because i don't mind either
scenario. but because i felt like it! lol.
i just had grilled cheese and pizza rolls. yom.
again! no iced coffee this time, though.
pretty soon i have to go pick derek up from
work because i am not letting him walk
home in this. especially when it's dark out.
he could get hit by a car!
i remember when the october storm started
and my mom was all freaked out like aliens
were attacking or something.
she kept saying how bizarre it was lol.
and then a day or two later my dad, brothers,
and i drove out to batavia where there was like,
no snow. and got burger king because it was
the only place open.
and my brothers and i played so many
games of battleship and hangman
that i'm still a pro.
then i remember the storm BEFORE that...
don't even know how old i was, but i was stuck
at allisons house and we rode her four wheelers
up and down the streets of cheektowaga,
and there were tons of people and cars stuck on harlem
road and people started walking home from there. it
was crazy. and i also remember that i had to
borrow a pair of her underwear when we finally
showered. lol.
i actually don't mind being snowed in at all.
even if i am not exactly snowed in today.
and i have xmas shopping to do still.
after that, snow me in.
word.
-mints.
not because of the snow, or because it was super
dead in the store by then...because i don't mind either
scenario. but because i felt like it! lol.
i just had grilled cheese and pizza rolls. yom.
again! no iced coffee this time, though.
pretty soon i have to go pick derek up from
work because i am not letting him walk
home in this. especially when it's dark out.
he could get hit by a car!
i remember when the october storm started
and my mom was all freaked out like aliens
were attacking or something.
she kept saying how bizarre it was lol.
and then a day or two later my dad, brothers,
and i drove out to batavia where there was like,
no snow. and got burger king because it was
the only place open.
and my brothers and i played so many
games of battleship and hangman
that i'm still a pro.
then i remember the storm BEFORE that...
don't even know how old i was, but i was stuck
at allisons house and we rode her four wheelers
up and down the streets of cheektowaga,
and there were tons of people and cars stuck on harlem
road and people started walking home from there. it
was crazy. and i also remember that i had to
borrow a pair of her underwear when we finally
showered. lol.
i actually don't mind being snowed in at all.
even if i am not exactly snowed in today.
and i have xmas shopping to do still.
after that, snow me in.
word.
-mints.
snow!
man, now i can't go riding.
well, i could but i don't want to get stuck out
there! even with stoney! lol. :[
poor stoney won't be getting his weekly
love. so i guess i can't go xmas shopping either
which means i have the day off and i will
probably just scan and upload some of
the pictures derek just got developed.
tata for now.
well, i could but i don't want to get stuck out
there! even with stoney! lol. :[
poor stoney won't be getting his weekly
love. so i guess i can't go xmas shopping either
which means i have the day off and i will
probably just scan and upload some of
the pictures derek just got developed.
tata for now.
one, two step.
i love cha cha dancing by myself to adele.
it makes me feel alive! hahaha.
well, i just love to dance. i need to go
dancing more. derek won't go line dancing
with me, but someday i'll get him to.
i also want to take swing dancing lessons
but that is also taking some convincing.
:/
I WILL GET THERE!
how fun would that be?
it makes me feel alive! hahaha.
well, i just love to dance. i need to go
dancing more. derek won't go line dancing
with me, but someday i'll get him to.
i also want to take swing dancing lessons
but that is also taking some convincing.
:/
I WILL GET THERE!
how fun would that be?
yom.
i just made myself a delicious lunch.
grilled cheese with pizza rolls.
and iced coffee from dd.
i bought too many snacks today, we already
have too many snacks! lol. but i was hungry.
i bought turtle chex mix, pringles,
and bagels and cream cheese,
and i am making rice krispie treats today...
and on friday is the cookie party so i'll
be bringing 100 cookies back here. 10 varieties.
silly me. guess we'll just get fat!
lol.
<3
update: tacos for dinner! DOUBLE YOMG!
i couldn't ask for a better boo!
grilled cheese with pizza rolls.
and iced coffee from dd.
i bought too many snacks today, we already
have too many snacks! lol. but i was hungry.
i bought turtle chex mix, pringles,
and bagels and cream cheese,
and i am making rice krispie treats today...
and on friday is the cookie party so i'll
be bringing 100 cookies back here. 10 varieties.
silly me. guess we'll just get fat!
lol.
<3
update: tacos for dinner! DOUBLE YOMG!
i couldn't ask for a better boo!
cakez.
this is the cake i want for my next bday.
and if it costs too much then i am going
to force my future husband to have an alice in
wonderland themed wedding...or at least a cake.
it's amazing.
and if it costs too much then i am going
to force my future husband to have an alice in
wonderland themed wedding...or at least a cake.
it's amazing.
what a great day!
did my toys r us shopping.
got samantha the aquadoodle mat for the wall
and this realllllly soft stuffed pony.
[they live next door to the boston
equestrian center...what more could you ask for!]
i got derek's mom&her bf some organic oatmeal pancake mix
to go with the blis maple syrup and the tea leaves/tea ball.
[i love williams sonoma.]
i didn't get kristin anything yet.
not telling what i got derek cos he can see this.
i got my brother a book with all the beatles lyrics
illustrated, and two beatles posters.
i got my sister the game of LIFE, pirates of the carribean
edition, and a target gift card.
i'll be getting my dad a home depot gift card
and a book.
my mom a gift card [don't know for where yet]
and a book. and some of that maple syrup if i have
enough money left because she was very jealous
that derek's mom was getting some.
and my other brother is getting a visa gift card,
and some clothes from abercrombie.
i love christmas shopping...
i hate having to limit myself!
and while walking into the mall i found
$6 on the ground, and got to see tim
@ UO!
and i picked up some williams sonoma hot chocolate
for my boo and i to share [hopefully some tonight!]
it's chocolate shavings! and you melt them.
how much better could it be, really?
got samantha the aquadoodle mat for the wall
and this realllllly soft stuffed pony.
[they live next door to the boston
equestrian center...what more could you ask for!]
i got derek's mom&her bf some organic oatmeal pancake mix
to go with the blis maple syrup and the tea leaves/tea ball.
[i love williams sonoma.]
i didn't get kristin anything yet.
not telling what i got derek cos he can see this.
i got my brother a book with all the beatles lyrics
illustrated, and two beatles posters.
i got my sister the game of LIFE, pirates of the carribean
edition, and a target gift card.
i'll be getting my dad a home depot gift card
and a book.
my mom a gift card [don't know for where yet]
and a book. and some of that maple syrup if i have
enough money left because she was very jealous
that derek's mom was getting some.
and my other brother is getting a visa gift card,
and some clothes from abercrombie.
i love christmas shopping...
i hate having to limit myself!
and while walking into the mall i found
$6 on the ground, and got to see tim
@ UO!
and i picked up some williams sonoma hot chocolate
for my boo and i to share [hopefully some tonight!]
it's chocolate shavings! and you melt them.
how much better could it be, really?
tagzzzz/
1. What was I doing 10 years ago?
i was 10 years old. probably MAD excited for santa to come.
just started horseback riding that year!
can't believe it was that long ago.
i wanna be 10 again.
2. List five things on today's to do list.
today is pretty much over, so i'll do tomorrow's to do list!
- go to toys r us, return samantha's present, get samantha different present.
- go to williams sonoma get presents for rest of derek's family.
- go to borders and get books for my family's presents.
- go to dunkin donuts [always]
- go to work.
3. Snacks I enjoy.
santas favorite cookies.
cheese.
4. Things I'd do if I were a billionaire.
- build my mom a new house with a beautiful garden. :]
- pay my sister's house and car off. not that she needs my help
but if i could, i would.
- put myself and my brothers through college.
- build my own house complete with barn and horses and pigs.
- start a rescue facility on my property for abused dogs and horses.
5. Places I have lived.
buffalo, ny. all my life. if you want to get technical...
i lived in cheektowaga until i was one. i don't remember that house.
i lived in buffalo/ cheektowaga until i was 17.
then we moved to alden. it sucked.
now i live in buffalo with my sister/ lancaster w. derek.
6. People I'd like to know more about.
andy warhol. andre 3000. judy garland. etc etc
i want sai and dani and jamaal and dex to do this!
i was 10 years old. probably MAD excited for santa to come.
just started horseback riding that year!
can't believe it was that long ago.
i wanna be 10 again.
2. List five things on today's to do list.
today is pretty much over, so i'll do tomorrow's to do list!
- go to toys r us, return samantha's present, get samantha different present.
- go to williams sonoma get presents for rest of derek's family.
- go to borders and get books for my family's presents.
- go to dunkin donuts [always]
- go to work.
3. Snacks I enjoy.
santas favorite cookies.
cheese.
4. Things I'd do if I were a billionaire.
- build my mom a new house with a beautiful garden. :]
- pay my sister's house and car off. not that she needs my help
but if i could, i would.
- put myself and my brothers through college.
- build my own house complete with barn and horses and pigs.
- start a rescue facility on my property for abused dogs and horses.
5. Places I have lived.
buffalo, ny. all my life. if you want to get technical...
i lived in cheektowaga until i was one. i don't remember that house.
i lived in buffalo/ cheektowaga until i was 17.
then we moved to alden. it sucked.
now i live in buffalo with my sister/ lancaster w. derek.
6. People I'd like to know more about.
andy warhol. andre 3000. judy garland. etc etc
i want sai and dani and jamaal and dex to do this!
well, i guess nows a good time if any;
a christmas wishlist!
- a horse. namely stoney. but he is not for sale.
so any horse will do, i suppose. -eye roll-
- a saddle. which i think is more reasonable than a horse, no?
my very own saddle? would be nice.
- a dressform. an adjustable dress form, actually. so i can
get to work on all the creations that my mind cranks out, but i have
not been able to create due to lack of space, and the fact that
a dressform would be very helpful. also, i have used my sewing machine
i got for christmas last year about... a dozen times. all year. sad, i know.
- all the books andy warhol wrote.
[and an original piece of his artwork,
if you would be so kind. please, thank you.]
- a friend for shooter wilson, aka; my own dog.
an all white pitbull, or a great dane mix. preferably
a rescue puppy.
- petunia.
- a place to keep all the animals i want.
- to live one day in wonderland.
- a real summer this year.
- to be with my boo foreverlong.
:]
oh, and i also love quarters and gift cards...
so if you want to send me any christmas gifts,
just ask me for my address!
[i'll be waiting patiently fo all your inquiries...]
this is my somewhat unreasonable wishlist.
but what's a wishlist if you get everything on it?
that's no fun, in my opinion.
-mints.
- a horse. namely stoney. but he is not for sale.
so any horse will do, i suppose. -eye roll-
- a saddle. which i think is more reasonable than a horse, no?
my very own saddle? would be nice.
- a dressform. an adjustable dress form, actually. so i can
get to work on all the creations that my mind cranks out, but i have
not been able to create due to lack of space, and the fact that
a dressform would be very helpful. also, i have used my sewing machine
i got for christmas last year about... a dozen times. all year. sad, i know.
- all the books andy warhol wrote.
[and an original piece of his artwork,
if you would be so kind. please, thank you.]
- a friend for shooter wilson, aka; my own dog.
an all white pitbull, or a great dane mix. preferably
a rescue puppy.
- petunia.
- a place to keep all the animals i want.
- to live one day in wonderland.
- a real summer this year.
- to be with my boo foreverlong.
:]
oh, and i also love quarters and gift cards...
so if you want to send me any christmas gifts,
just ask me for my address!
[i'll be waiting patiently fo all your inquiries...]
this is my somewhat unreasonable wishlist.
but what's a wishlist if you get everything on it?
that's no fun, in my opinion.
-mints.
tops xmas party.
was SO fun haha.
and the food was really good.
didn't get many pics cos i was
either dancing or eating.
but i have been dubbed the
dancing queen of tops d&l.
what can i say?
i got the moves.
[omg, a real picture of me! i'm not making any strange faces!
the flash is not drowning me out! i am a bit sweaty but i am smiling,
and posing! how curious.]
left early though and...
went to bed early!
i don't have much else to say today.
almost done w. my xmas shopping
and i'm getting my boo the
MOST AWESOME PRESENT EVER.
well, maybe not but it's something
i know he wants.
holler.
can't wait for christmas.
and boo christmas.
oh, and i am mad that
my hair doesn't look red anymore.
:(.
-mints.
and the food was really good.
didn't get many pics cos i was
either dancing or eating.
but i have been dubbed the
dancing queen of tops d&l.
what can i say?
i got the moves.
[omg, a real picture of me! i'm not making any strange faces!
the flash is not drowning me out! i am a bit sweaty but i am smiling,
and posing! how curious.]
left early though and...
went to bed early!
i don't have much else to say today.
almost done w. my xmas shopping
and i'm getting my boo the
MOST AWESOME PRESENT EVER.
well, maybe not but it's something
i know he wants.
holler.
can't wait for christmas.
and boo christmas.
oh, and i am mad that
my hair doesn't look red anymore.
:(.
-mints.
wow.
caylee anthony's body was found.
2,000 feet behind her gparents house.
i want to know how/why she killed her.
her mom is charged with murder,
and can't wait til this whole
case splays out. so so sad.
that poor little girl.
click here to read.
2,000 feet behind her gparents house.
i want to know how/why she killed her.
her mom is charged with murder,
and can't wait til this whole
case splays out. so so sad.
that poor little girl.
click here to read.
i rode stoney again today.
i love him. lol.
he's so cuddly. he tries
to get in my pockets and lets
you cuddle and brush his face.
he acts like a little pony but
he's a big horse.
anyways, had a good ride today.
and a good workout.
i can't believe there are people
afraid of horses. they are so
amazing.
tammy from work said when it gets warmer
she wants to come watch me ride. it
feels nice to have someone interested.
this is a disgusting case of animal abuse,
that i got off of fugly horse...
i can't believe people are such idiots.
why would you think such a light breed,
not to mention EMACIATED horse could pull your
car out of the mud? and the couple
claims that they are both veterinarians.
sick.
how, after having six horses, can you not
care enough about them not to test their
limits and how hard is it to feed them?!
if you can live in langley you can feed
your horses.
i love him. lol.
he's so cuddly. he tries
to get in my pockets and lets
you cuddle and brush his face.
he acts like a little pony but
he's a big horse.
anyways, had a good ride today.
and a good workout.
i can't believe there are people
afraid of horses. they are so
amazing.
tammy from work said when it gets warmer
she wants to come watch me ride. it
feels nice to have someone interested.
this is a disgusting case of animal abuse,
that i got off of fugly horse...
i can't believe people are such idiots.
why would you think such a light breed,
not to mention EMACIATED horse could pull your
car out of the mud? and the couple
claims that they are both veterinarians.
sick.
how, after having six horses, can you not
care enough about them not to test their
limits and how hard is it to feed them?!
if you can live in langley you can feed
your horses.
oh no.
i'm starting to get bad muscle spasms again,
i hate this part right here.
but on a brighter note,
i have horseback riding in the morning.
it's so therapeutic. today at work
i was daydreaming and for some reason
i just got this feeling like i need/want
to be in a horseshow this summer.
you know when you can picture yourself there
and get all excited? i'm ready. it's been too long!
i will ride til i die.
then i am going to the TOPS xmas party
WITHOUT derek because he doesn't want to go.
lol. i mean it's free food, though?
i hate this part right here.
but on a brighter note,
i have horseback riding in the morning.
it's so therapeutic. today at work
i was daydreaming and for some reason
i just got this feeling like i need/want
to be in a horseshow this summer.
you know when you can picture yourself there
and get all excited? i'm ready. it's been too long!
i will ride til i die.
then i am going to the TOPS xmas party
WITHOUT derek because he doesn't want to go.
lol. i mean it's free food, though?
right about now
i'd like to be way way way down south
in savannah, georgia
sweating through my t-shirt sitting in
a dark little restaurant
listening to some
real live southern blues
with lady chablis.
i hate the winter.
in savannah, georgia
sweating through my t-shirt sitting in
a dark little restaurant
listening to some
real live southern blues
with lady chablis.
i hate the winter.
anybody vs. you; anybody loses.
white whale played their second show last night.
derek sings! :]
and we also saw kepi ghoulie play
he's cool, i really like him.
he was the last to play,
and when he started playing...
a bat started flying around!!!
omg it almost hit me&derek like 3 times.
then is settled down and kepi sung it
a batty lullaby.
it was a really good show.
and i was happy with the weathers!
40 degrees in dec. thanks!
now for some random pictures
from last night.
i guess i thought this was really cool.
don't remember taking it.
aw nani got cut off.
military style, dontcha know.
mmmhello.
i call this sexy.
ed westwick.
aka chuck bass.
when i found out he was
BRITISH and IN A BAND.
knocked off my feet.
sorry, boo.
you sexy, too.
lol.
oh, and i cried when chuck came back last night.
^lawl.
ed westwick.
aka chuck bass.
when i found out he was
BRITISH and IN A BAND.
knocked off my feet.
sorry, boo.
you sexy, too.
lol.
oh, and i cried when chuck came back last night.
^lawl.
oh, and...
i think my parent's next door neighbors
got rid of avery. he is never outside,
and my mom says she never hears him barking.
he was supposed to be mine,
and if i couldn't have him
then i could at least visit
him and feed him.
now he's gone. :[
i can only hope he went to a better
family, though i am not sure what
better people they could be dealing with.
got rid of avery. he is never outside,
and my mom says she never hears him barking.
he was supposed to be mine,
and if i couldn't have him
then i could at least visit
him and feed him.
now he's gone. :[
i can only hope he went to a better
family, though i am not sure what
better people they could be dealing with.
bun in the oven.
derek and i are going to open
a bakery on elmwood and live above it.
well, that's my current dream.
lol. or i can do it by myself, but...
he's a mighty fine baker.
i get all sorts of crazy ideas
and convince myself
"it wouldn't be that hard."
though, it probably would.
she's a dreamer, that one.
another one of my current dreams
is to have an all white pitbull,
yes i know the all white ones are
deaf, that is why i want one
so i can take extra special care
of him. and his name would be gesso.
he is my dream dog and if i could
have him,i would.
i don't even know where to get
this dog. but i think i could find one!
a bakery on elmwood and live above it.
well, that's my current dream.
lol. or i can do it by myself, but...
he's a mighty fine baker.
i get all sorts of crazy ideas
and convince myself
"it wouldn't be that hard."
though, it probably would.
she's a dreamer, that one.
another one of my current dreams
is to have an all white pitbull,
yes i know the all white ones are
deaf, that is why i want one
so i can take extra special care
of him. and his name would be gesso.
he is my dream dog and if i could
have him,i would.
i don't even know where to get
this dog. but i think i could find one!
all i have to say
>
is that i'm lucky i don't have enough money
because my body is one step out the door
to go adopt this baby pig at the spca.
going to that site is ALWAYS a bad idea,
unless you can actually take somebody home.
i have nowhere to keep a pig.
but i want her.
:[
pigs are very smart, you know.
but nobody wants to listen to my arguments!
and her name is petunia! how cute.
i love how it looks like someone
spilled ink on her little nose.
is that i'm lucky i don't have enough money
because my body is one step out the door
to go adopt this baby pig at the spca.
going to that site is ALWAYS a bad idea,
unless you can actually take somebody home.
i have nowhere to keep a pig.
but i want her.
:[
pigs are very smart, you know.
but nobody wants to listen to my arguments!
and her name is petunia! how cute.
i love how it looks like someone
spilled ink on her little nose.
meet the fam.
[click on the pictures to see the whole thing.]
just thought i would let you all know that i
have the cutest grandpa in the world.
that's my grandma, aunt liz, uncle tom,
mom, and gpa on the chair! mom's side of the
fam.
SCAT!
thanks to lisa for supplying the lindt truffles.
the girls.
my sister, my cousin heather, me, my cousin alicia,
and my cousin natalie on the chair.
let me please remind you that this
was AFTER dinner. lol.
all the kids. [by stair]
natalie,
lisa, heather,
me, jake,
bill, jeremy, alicia.
durrrr.
those are from thanksgiving.
just thought i would let you all know that i
have the cutest grandpa in the world.
that's my grandma, aunt liz, uncle tom,
mom, and gpa on the chair! mom's side of the
fam.
SCAT!
thanks to lisa for supplying the lindt truffles.
the girls.
my sister, my cousin heather, me, my cousin alicia,
and my cousin natalie on the chair.
let me please remind you that this
was AFTER dinner. lol.
all the kids. [by stair]
natalie,
lisa, heather,
me, jake,
bill, jeremy, alicia.
durrrr.
those are from thanksgiving.
dreamzzz.
derek says i should keep a dream journal cos my dreams
are so detiled and crazy and maybe someday they'll make
a great book. :] &because i remember them so well.
i think i might. but it would take way too long
to write them by hand so i'll have to do it on a blog.
don't know if it will be public or private yet, though.
if i do decide to let everyone read my dreams,
i'll make sure to let you know.
now i'm about to and listen
to some universal mind control
while i wait for my boo to come home.
are so detiled and crazy and maybe someday they'll make
a great book. :] &because i remember them so well.
i think i might. but it would take way too long
to write them by hand so i'll have to do it on a blog.
don't know if it will be public or private yet, though.
if i do decide to let everyone read my dreams,
i'll make sure to let you know.
now i'm about to and listen
to some universal mind control
while i wait for my boo to come home.
and now, for a dedication.
August 6, 1928 – February 22, 1987
to one of the most amazing men to ever
walk the earth.
a true genius.
and a true person, who was ALWAYS himself
despite what everybody else thought of him
or his work. i wish i knew him.
he really is my hero.
"During the 1960s, I think, people forgot what emotions were supposed to be. And I don't think they've ever remembered."
"Before I was shot, I always thought that I was more half-there than all-there - I always suspected that I was watching TV instead of living life. Right when I was being shot and ever since, I knew that I was watching television."
"I never understood why when you died, you didn't just vanish, everything could just keep going on the way it was only you just wouldn't be there. I always thought I'd like my own tombstone to be blank. No epitaph, and no name. Well, actually, I'd like it to say 'figment.'"
"I have Social Disease. I have to go out every night. If I stay home one night I start spreading rumors to my dogs. "
i've decided that i'm getting an andy warhol tattoo.
i haven't decided what yet, but i know that it will
be my ONLY tattoo with color. and it will be amazing.
:]
today was a really good day.
derek had to work at 5am, but that means
he came home early. like 1-ish.
i had off because i gave my shift to dawn,
she only had like 18 hours. soooo
i went and got my check, set aside my money
for horseback riding; and went shopping!
i got billy the rest of his xmas present.
and i got myself a v-neck tee with
the white rabbit from alices adventures in wonderland!
i thought omg this shirt is here for ME
because i just read the book. i love alice
in wonderland. and will eventually get a tat in
dedication to the work of lewis carrol.
but yeah, i had to get the shirt, even though $30
for a vneck tee is blah.
oh, and i ran into my grandma in the gap!
we discussed what we're buying for who
and she keeps telling me i lost weight. WOO HA.
andddd she told me what a great guy derek
is and how she likes him so much. haha.
then i left and i told my boo that i was very bad
and bought myself a shirt haha then we
went to red robin and had lunch i was sooo
hungry [pms does that to me]
and i ate my WHOLE cheeseburger, all my fries
and afterwards i got a gingerbread milkshake to go.
my boo and i shared that, though so i can't take
full credit. but that is a lot for me, i rarely
clean my plate.
then we went to bingo! i won $50!
and i won fifty bucks because we
were praying to jah to provide for us.
JAH WILL PROVIDE, RASTAFARI!
and also, i am convinced...
that i was meant to buy that shirt with
the white rabbit on it so the universe
decided to give me my money black plus some extra.
and for that i say thank you, universe.
and now we are back at his abode, watching 2&1/2 men
eating spicy sweet chili doritos and drinking
ginger ale.
i'm so happy.
derek had to work at 5am, but that means
he came home early. like 1-ish.
i had off because i gave my shift to dawn,
she only had like 18 hours. soooo
i went and got my check, set aside my money
for horseback riding; and went shopping!
i got billy the rest of his xmas present.
and i got myself a v-neck tee with
the white rabbit from alices adventures in wonderland!
i thought omg this shirt is here for ME
because i just read the book. i love alice
in wonderland. and will eventually get a tat in
dedication to the work of lewis carrol.
but yeah, i had to get the shirt, even though $30
for a vneck tee is blah.
oh, and i ran into my grandma in the gap!
we discussed what we're buying for who
and she keeps telling me i lost weight. WOO HA.
andddd she told me what a great guy derek
is and how she likes him so much. haha.
then i left and i told my boo that i was very bad
and bought myself a shirt haha then we
went to red robin and had lunch i was sooo
hungry [pms does that to me]
and i ate my WHOLE cheeseburger, all my fries
and afterwards i got a gingerbread milkshake to go.
my boo and i shared that, though so i can't take
full credit. but that is a lot for me, i rarely
clean my plate.
then we went to bingo! i won $50!
and i won fifty bucks because we
were praying to jah to provide for us.
JAH WILL PROVIDE, RASTAFARI!
and also, i am convinced...
that i was meant to buy that shirt with
the white rabbit on it so the universe
decided to give me my money black plus some extra.
and for that i say thank you, universe.
and now we are back at his abode, watching 2&1/2 men
eating spicy sweet chili doritos and drinking
ginger ale.
i'm so happy.
sisters be good to your brothers...
well, i think i should have a talk with my brothers. at least jake, since he is older.
i want him/them to know that if they ever are having girl problems
they can talk to me about it. get a girls point of view. tell him how the girl
might be feeling about things.i don't want them to go around feeling like they broke
someone's heart. that is not a good feeling to have
on your conscience. but at the same time, you can't sacrifice what will make you
happy, because a girl is going to get her feelings hurt. that puts some guys
in the situation to talk to both of them. which will ALWAYS end bad. you will
keep developing feelings for both girls until you get caught and are left with
nobody, or are forced to choose. and it will hurt both of those girls forever.
so. i want my brothers to be good guys. good boyfriends. good companions.
i have tremendous faith in the people they already are. jake is very good to
his girlfriend. but i know sometimes situations arise out of nowhere, and if you
make the wrong decision you will always regret losing that girl.
i feel like my sister and i didn't cry enough in front of them. i remember
crying over boys and my brother would ask what was wrong and i would say nothing.
if someone sees their sister getting hurt by something, they are likely to avoid
doing that to someone else. at least i know my brother's would. i never really
showed or told them, this is how you don't treat a girl. so hopefully a talk
and the invitation to talk whenever they need to will do just as well.
i know they are good guys, even at such a young age. but the good guys are
the ones who don't want to hurt someone else's feelings. and we know how that goes.
i love my brothers and i just don't ever want them to wish they could
have been a better boyfriend, a better man, a better friend, a better person.
honesty is key when maintaining relationships.
i want him/them to know that if they ever are having girl problems
they can talk to me about it. get a girls point of view. tell him how the girl
might be feeling about things.i don't want them to go around feeling like they broke
someone's heart. that is not a good feeling to have
on your conscience. but at the same time, you can't sacrifice what will make you
happy, because a girl is going to get her feelings hurt. that puts some guys
in the situation to talk to both of them. which will ALWAYS end bad. you will
keep developing feelings for both girls until you get caught and are left with
nobody, or are forced to choose. and it will hurt both of those girls forever.
so. i want my brothers to be good guys. good boyfriends. good companions.
i have tremendous faith in the people they already are. jake is very good to
his girlfriend. but i know sometimes situations arise out of nowhere, and if you
make the wrong decision you will always regret losing that girl.
i feel like my sister and i didn't cry enough in front of them. i remember
crying over boys and my brother would ask what was wrong and i would say nothing.
if someone sees their sister getting hurt by something, they are likely to avoid
doing that to someone else. at least i know my brother's would. i never really
showed or told them, this is how you don't treat a girl. so hopefully a talk
and the invitation to talk whenever they need to will do just as well.
i know they are good guys, even at such a young age. but the good guys are
the ones who don't want to hurt someone else's feelings. and we know how that goes.
i love my brothers and i just don't ever want them to wish they could
have been a better boyfriend, a better man, a better friend, a better person.
honesty is key when maintaining relationships.
i felt like destroying something beautiful.
people don't very much appreciate that answer
to the tattoo/piercing questions unless they
are a fight club fan.
anyway...
decided to make a list
with photos if i have them
of what i have done to myself.
my first piercing was my belly button.
which i begged for on the kitchen floor/
foot of my mom's bed and promised not to tell my dad.
i recently took it out about two months ago
because it started feeling sore...after 4 years.
i miss it, though.
my second piercing was my nose.
i was in 11th grade and also begged my mom
on the kitchen floor to take me.
i took that one out shortly after
i got my anti-eyebrow because i thought
i had too much in my face.
my third was my monroe.
i think these were all within two years.
i said "yeah mom, last one i promise." [not]
so she took me and i hid it from my dad for approx.
two weeks [i'm good, i know] and then he saw it
and was over it shortly.
[when i had just my monroe and nose done.]
lets see...i think it was around then when i convinced
my mom to take me to get my first tattoo.
she dropped me off and paid for it. and picked me up
when it was done. i was all by myself. i still enjoyed it. lol.
it's the gemini constellation. i've been asked if it was connect
the dots or if it was stick figures holding hands. but no, it's gemini.
i've seen a few people copy me with this one. and though it's
annoying...there's nothing you can do about it, right?
[only pic i could find.]
next was my anti-eyebrow.
there was quite a bit of time between the monroe
and the anti. but i love my anti-eyebrow and keeping
it until it surfaces. it has been two years now
and we're still going strong! lol.
then i got a vertical hood piercing.
i have never taken a picture of it.
you can google hood piercings if you'd like.
recently took it out because my body got
used to it if you know what i'm saying.
i miss that one also a little bit.
kayla and i were in canada on clifton hill
and had some time to waste before we saw our friends.
and we went to this place and i got that, and she
got a bad tattoo that i can't believe i let her get.
[ex boyfriends name on butt, anybody?
at least it was his nick-name, though...so...i dono]
we laugh about it now. and it was fun at the time.
then was my second tattoo. my ex-boyfriend went with me
the first time. even though we weren't together at the time,
he came to take pictures. then it scabbed up and the tattoo
was pretty much gone. and derek went with me the second
time, pretty much when we first started talking.
it says al-Jamila in arabic, which translates in english
to "the pretty one" or "beautiful"
i was feeling good about myself at that time in my life and
it reminds me to stay feeling beautiful, all the time!
i also know of some people who have similarssss.
my friend ayla got arabic on her right wrist, but that
doesn't bother me. her's means faith. and it's bigger than
mine. i love her so it's like a bond type thing to me now, i guess.
i know this girl i used to be friends with got beauty on her wrist, too.
but she has issues and took all her friend's tattoo ideas
which is very annoying.
then i got my anti-tragus.
at this point they were coming at a rapid pace,
and there was nothing anybody could do about it.
took that out about... 3 months later because it was
giving me problems. it would get swollen and effect my hearing.
i could blame it on the place i had it done at.
but i didn't. and i kept going there. and i am never going
there again. :]
my best friend kayla still has her's.
though she got her's after me, she's had it more than 3 months.
uhh then i... what did i do?
oh, my smiley.
it annoys me sometimes because it's fun to play with
and i am afraid i might rip it out on accident.
but contrary to popular belief, i can brush my teeth and eat
just fine with it in. i've debated whether or not i should
take it out... still thinking about it.
i think my clavicles were my next and
most recent piercing after that...
took those out a couple months after because
they weren't even, and one wasn't deep enough.
and the one went under a tendon or something because
there was a weird bump. anyways...
i plan on getting them done again soon at a better place,
where they might actually do them right.
i was really sad that i had to take them out but figured
i'd look really dumb walking around with them being that way.
and my money was wasted.
then was my most recent tattoo, that is already
posted in here but i'll put it up anyways...
it was a bold decision but i love it, and my mom and aunt
don't seem to have any problems with it. i think they are used
to this. and i told my mom about it the night before so...you know.
about the script...it's a line from the poem
"a dream within a dream" by edgar allen poe.
i love this poem. very deep poem,
can be taken in many different ways. there is a
meaning to me beyond the poem. but a way that
i think and live. it would be hard to describe
to someone else. i don't even think derek gets it,
i have tried, though! but either way. it means a lot
to me. enough to get it on my chest.
as for my ear piercings. i've been doing those
by myself on and off for awhile now. they close up,
i just open them back up haha. they haven't closed
in a few years, though. i only have one hole in
each ear.
that's all i've done to myself to far...
more to come soon.
to the tattoo/piercing questions unless they
are a fight club fan.
anyway...
decided to make a list
with photos if i have them
of what i have done to myself.
my first piercing was my belly button.
which i begged for on the kitchen floor/
foot of my mom's bed and promised not to tell my dad.
i recently took it out about two months ago
because it started feeling sore...after 4 years.
i miss it, though.
my second piercing was my nose.
i was in 11th grade and also begged my mom
on the kitchen floor to take me.
i took that one out shortly after
i got my anti-eyebrow because i thought
i had too much in my face.
my third was my monroe.
i think these were all within two years.
i said "yeah mom, last one i promise." [not]
so she took me and i hid it from my dad for approx.
two weeks [i'm good, i know] and then he saw it
and was over it shortly.
[when i had just my monroe and nose done.]
lets see...i think it was around then when i convinced
my mom to take me to get my first tattoo.
she dropped me off and paid for it. and picked me up
when it was done. i was all by myself. i still enjoyed it. lol.
it's the gemini constellation. i've been asked if it was connect
the dots or if it was stick figures holding hands. but no, it's gemini.
i've seen a few people copy me with this one. and though it's
annoying...there's nothing you can do about it, right?
[only pic i could find.]
next was my anti-eyebrow.
there was quite a bit of time between the monroe
and the anti. but i love my anti-eyebrow and keeping
it until it surfaces. it has been two years now
and we're still going strong! lol.
then i got a vertical hood piercing.
i have never taken a picture of it.
you can google hood piercings if you'd like.
recently took it out because my body got
used to it if you know what i'm saying.
i miss that one also a little bit.
kayla and i were in canada on clifton hill
and had some time to waste before we saw our friends.
and we went to this place and i got that, and she
got a bad tattoo that i can't believe i let her get.
[ex boyfriends name on butt, anybody?
at least it was his nick-name, though...so...i dono]
we laugh about it now. and it was fun at the time.
then was my second tattoo. my ex-boyfriend went with me
the first time. even though we weren't together at the time,
he came to take pictures. then it scabbed up and the tattoo
was pretty much gone. and derek went with me the second
time, pretty much when we first started talking.
it says al-Jamila in arabic, which translates in english
to "the pretty one" or "beautiful"
i was feeling good about myself at that time in my life and
it reminds me to stay feeling beautiful, all the time!
i also know of some people who have similarssss.
my friend ayla got arabic on her right wrist, but that
doesn't bother me. her's means faith. and it's bigger than
mine. i love her so it's like a bond type thing to me now, i guess.
i know this girl i used to be friends with got beauty on her wrist, too.
but she has issues and took all her friend's tattoo ideas
which is very annoying.
then i got my anti-tragus.
at this point they were coming at a rapid pace,
and there was nothing anybody could do about it.
took that out about... 3 months later because it was
giving me problems. it would get swollen and effect my hearing.
i could blame it on the place i had it done at.
but i didn't. and i kept going there. and i am never going
there again. :]
my best friend kayla still has her's.
though she got her's after me, she's had it more than 3 months.
uhh then i... what did i do?
oh, my smiley.
it annoys me sometimes because it's fun to play with
and i am afraid i might rip it out on accident.
but contrary to popular belief, i can brush my teeth and eat
just fine with it in. i've debated whether or not i should
take it out... still thinking about it.
i think my clavicles were my next and
most recent piercing after that...
took those out a couple months after because
they weren't even, and one wasn't deep enough.
and the one went under a tendon or something because
there was a weird bump. anyways...
i plan on getting them done again soon at a better place,
where they might actually do them right.
i was really sad that i had to take them out but figured
i'd look really dumb walking around with them being that way.
and my money was wasted.
then was my most recent tattoo, that is already
posted in here but i'll put it up anyways...
it was a bold decision but i love it, and my mom and aunt
don't seem to have any problems with it. i think they are used
to this. and i told my mom about it the night before so...you know.
about the script...it's a line from the poem
"a dream within a dream" by edgar allen poe.
i love this poem. very deep poem,
can be taken in many different ways. there is a
meaning to me beyond the poem. but a way that
i think and live. it would be hard to describe
to someone else. i don't even think derek gets it,
i have tried, though! but either way. it means a lot
to me. enough to get it on my chest.
as for my ear piercings. i've been doing those
by myself on and off for awhile now. they close up,
i just open them back up haha. they haven't closed
in a few years, though. i only have one hole in
each ear.
that's all i've done to myself to far...
more to come soon.
oh yeah,
and it is december! wow, this year
went by incredibly fast.
second christmas with derek.
:]
my dad is sending me thanksgiving day pictures today
i can't wait to see them! haha.
went by incredibly fast.
second christmas with derek.
:]
my dad is sending me thanksgiving day pictures today
i can't wait to see them! haha.
ahhhh
i am like 2 or three days behind on the gratitude journal.
i have been really busy.
i think i will leave off where i was, and maybe post
gratitude journal posts when i get the chance...
and not every single day.
-mints
i have been really busy.
i think i will leave off where i was, and maybe post
gratitude journal posts when i get the chance...
and not every single day.
-mints
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