yeah.

i am hurt, that's put on the backburner.
but for all i know he doesn't really care about our
relationship in that way.

i want an adult, loving, communicating, caring
partnership with him. he doesn't understand this.
he thinks everything's great how it is but it
could be so much better. i wish this kind of talk
didn't upset him. i wish he'd listen to me and
know it's only because i want something i've
never had before, someone for whom i come
first. someone who is sensitive enough to
send me flowers for no reason or just leave a
note that i'll find after he leaves for work.

jack doesn't know much about women, so i feel
bad for getting upset when he does something
hurtful to me unknowingly. but maybe if he'd
sit me down and talk to me about him and tell me
what he wants out of all this, i could help him
understand me.

i love you jack,

jenna.





-jenna jameson
how to make love like a porn star.